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"Why do you use chopsticks?", my brilliant bro asks, slightly smirking. Tongue firmly planted in his cheek. He was not a sushi eater. My nonchalant reply: "Just for fun." And the tone changed. It might never have occurred to him.

Hours and days and weeks are spent filling orders for needs. My primary need becomes to decipher and ensure that These People have what they need. I need to show up and smile. I need to actually get in the pool when I'd rather not. I need to create the list and duplicate in every medium available. I need to make the appointment but my new glasses can wait. I need to facilitate the ease of the next lesson by teaching this one. I need to think ahead, then count the cost. I need to show my work even though they're not watching. I need to wish they would hush but not say so. I need to say so. I need to hit reset because everybody needs a fresh start. I need to see the play each day. I need to hear all about it even at 11:43p and I think I'm done. At times it's Hoist. Other times call for a gentle rousing. I need to wait my turn. I need to use chopsticks because that keeps the roll together.

I need to blog on about my brother's new obsession with sushi but it occurs to me that I don't know whether he uses chopsticks or not. I see these important details as Just For Fun.


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