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NTGOAP: Sunburnt

Ways in which I'm Not That Good Of A Person: Summer 2016
• Although I am having a fantasticallyamazinglyadventurous summer, I am nonetheless plagued by a magnificentlyludicrouslyridiculous anxiety. It's a special kind of crazy where an introvert attempts to live in an extrovert's world. I'm talking about following my performer husband around the northern hemisphere as he comes alive in throngs of strangers and I die a little on the inside from the imagined pressure. To live up or come down. I can't even figure out which it is.
• So, I rely on liquid temerity and an abundance of adjectives while choking down ambiguous fears. I am brave though.
• If not, to a fault.
Most days, I am cool with leaping before the net appears. • But, I'd be a liar if I said I wasn't concerned with the perspective of those on the ground.
Which brings me to my next point... • In what I can only assume is an unprecedented anomaly, I've simultaneous delight and dread over his…

There must be lights burning brighter somewhere.

"Something is happening in Memphis; something is happening in our world."~ Dr. Martin Luther King 
This feels different. This recent flurry of news stories and protests feels different. It's bigger and it's genuine and it's not blowing over any time soon. 
Memphis has racial diversity with a dark past. It just is what it is and continues to influence our present and, undoubtedly, our future. Even as I write this, I am concerned about offense or being misunderstood myself.
As a student of history, I've studied slavery, the holocaust, the civil rights movement and beyond. I definitely don't consider myself a racist, but with transparency, I will say that I, like many white people in Memphis, don't understand the perspective of the black community. I don't understand what they were shouting at the protest. I don't understand why the bridge was blocked for so long. If I'm being honest, I don't understand exactly what the end goal is and I don…